2017 – The year ahead

Well this is going to be a fun one isn’t it.

At the centre of it all we’re all a little overwhelmed, standing rooted to the ground as the beast bears down on us and unable to make a move in defence, and what we need to do is move. Strategically that is. This year we must tell the difference between confidence and unthinking brashness. The latter will serve to do nothing but see us torn asunder.

January sees us still in defensive mode. More than ever we need to step back and check in with reality. Are we defending ourselves against butterflies in our fear state? Have we lost sight of the real issues to be faced? 

February is time for reflection, there is much to be done but it must be planned. Put aside weapons that no longer serve, and meditate on that which will. Gather your strength through rest and calm this month.

March sees results, but with them responsibilities to shoulder. That which you have been working for has begun to manifest, but at what cost? Do you have the strength to bear the burden or do you need, now, to hand the reigns over to others?

April is a threshold and as with all thresholds it asks us to make decisions. Do we stay put in the calm of known waters or do we make the leap into unknown territory? To stay is to stagnate, but to make that leap into the unknown is always a risk. 

May is the time to nurture your vision. Results have begun to roll in, if you’re playing your cards right, but it all will only be sustained if you can put aside your doubt and continue to steadily breath life into it.

June sees the potential for positive energy to feed into our lives. The Queen rides the energies that surround her and dances with them. Look to the positive energies in play in your life and work with them, nurture them and let them lead you to productivity.

July is once again time to stop and reflect lest we lose our way and our battles cease having meaning. Reflect and remember why you’re fighting, review the little details and make sure you aren’t becoming lackadaisical. There’s nothing worse than charging to victory and realising you lost yourself and your magic along the way.

August once again tells us to look up and take stock. It may feel like we’re trapped but the bars aren’t really holding us, we’re just too caught up to see it through our despair. 

September brings on a gentler energy, but one that equally requires your full attention. The garden is blooming but unless you continue to tend and cultivate it your work will be for nothing as it will wither. 

October is the month where the heart really takes front stage, we’ve lived in our heads for quite a while. Find a way to channel your emotions, give them productive outlets, and take control of what’s happening in your life. Emotions aren’t your enemy, they’re a powerful weapon in the arsenal when they are well known and given productive outlets. 

November is time to refocus on balance. Bring yourself in line, check your indulgences and your battles. Share. It’s all a game of give and take between you and the universe, as much as between you and the neighbour.

December… the year ends with the beast tamed, but not dead. Sorrows, grief, despair, these aren’t things we can kill, but we can learn to control and contain them. The queen is a force of strength and clear sighted decisions, follow in her steps as the year comes to a close. Let the beast be tamed, if only for this while.


The Iron Queen

He kisses without reserve, before sending the through the arch. She won’t wait forever after all, and the wind is cold.


I find her taming the beast.

“Do you kill it?”

“Not at all.” There’s an implication in her voice that it is immortal. The  beast of woe and sorrow that we can tame but never truly destroy in our life times. I comment that her dress isn’t entirely suited to this task and she laughs at me, standing in the snow in torn jeans and a singlet. She threads her arm through mine and leads me away from the tamed beast now tied to a stake.

The snow clears, the marble floors start, and we are in her throne room. The throne looks uncomfortable, but she sits anyway and invites me to do the same. Apparently sitting on the floor is just odd in her books, but I am not fit for the throne at her side by my own measure, so at her feet is my chosen place.

She talks.

She talks of a husband that focusses so much on the future that he ignores the present, and her, so for intents she is the widowed Queen. Here she looks to her people. Using hard won knowledge and experience to rule and resolve. Decisions always from a clear, cold place, regardless of any personal sympathies.

She talks of existing in the now, but not forgetting the past. Of watching over and guiding with clear vision the day to day. She explains, in a way, how it is we get lost and her role in bringing us back.

She smiles readily, and I feel no need to try and remove her mask as I did her husband’s. I know that underneath it is scars from old hurts, and she does not seek to hide the grief and pain she still feels. But she rules, there is iron in her spine, and she sees to the people regardless of her personal pains. She neither denies nor wallows in them.

Pushed wrongly she can be hard and cruel. She’ll use everything she nows of you against you. She’s not shy in admitting it. Not shy at all. Her mind is her greatest weapon and she’ll use it come hell or high water.

She reminds me, as our time comes to a close, that I too am Queen. She tells me that she hasn’t a lesson to teach me, I am already applying her lesson without guidance, but I must remember that I too am strong.

The Brittle King


The blade feels awkward in my hands as I throw myself at my lover. He smiles slightly as he pushes me back and over, again. I’m frustrated and he’s gently amused by it. It takes time, I know. Mastery always takes time. In the meantime, I’m the cutest frustrated little fox-kit ever according to this overgrown bastard.

The wind comes through the archway, ice cold, and that’s the cue to take my leave.

Continue reading “The Brittle King”


Tarot – Longest Night

My Wild Unknown deak isn’t reading well for me at the moment. I find that happens sometimes and trusted my gut when it said pick up the Shaman Deck (regardless of how much I HATE the name of it).

This is a reading I do from time to time designed to look at what’s happening over an extended period of time:

It’s the longest night, what comes with the dawning light?

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The cards in this deck are delicious and it reads beautifully.

The layout:

  1. Querant: The Shifter
  2. What we have now: Initiation
  3. Upper (outer) and lower (inner) worlds: The Illusion of the Moon and Ace of Bows.
  4. Obstacle: The World Tree
  5. Ally and help: 4 of Bones and Judgement
  6. The interplay of the situation: 5 of Bones, Evocation, Queen of Stones
  7. Healing – what will resolve the situation: 10 of Stones
  8. What will be: 9 of Bones

I’m not going into an in depth translation here, but in short there’s certain things changing in my life in big ways and I need to get the fuck out of the way and let it happen rather than resisting.

Of course it was somewhat ambiguous about whether it’s magic or personal it’s talking about so I asked and was met with “Yes”. Fun times. Fun times.



Here we go again…

I have had, for a little over a year now, the beautiful ‘The Wild Unknown‘ tarot. I have absolutely nothing bad to say about this deck, it’s stunningly beautiful and reads well. I do run into issues with the imagery though. All the decks I’ve read with in past are very pictorial, based in the Rider-Waite style. This one isn’t. So where I’d normally create stories based round the imagery here I can not and I find myself hunting for the little bit of paper and my tarot books a lot.

Image yanked from Aeclectic Tarot’s forums. Click through for the website.

That just won’t do long term.

So I’m devoting some times into really learning the deck. And with this comes some solid study into the tarot at large which will no doubt improve my ability to read over all.

I’m using the book Around the Tarot in 78 Days for this, as much because I’ve never used it before and would like to work with it to review it as for any other reason.

And I’m starting today,  because I’m off work sick and I might as well.

(All posts for this will be found in the tarot category and tagged ‘The Tarot Project’ for those who want to play along at home)


The Heirophant

This is from March, 2013. A conversation between a close friend and I put up on my old blog… I don’t want to lose it. I have reasons for that. 
The Hierophant – The Wild Unknown Tarot

“It’s you.” He says.

“The one with the key? How apt.”

“Alway picking.” He responds.


Be Open

I spent a bit of time tonight chatting to a dear friend who had sort of slipped through the cracks because… well because they are a quiet, self contained person who doesn’t jump online often and I am a quiet antisocial person who needs to be forced to talk. We spent a couple of hours talking life, magic, and creating things. And it was marvellous, quite frankly.

I was inspired just now to pull a card for them from my most loved Wild Unknown Tarot deck.

Daughter of Cups

(Do excuse my dodgy phone photograph)

The daughter of cups is attached to emotions…

My first thought was trust the heart, let yourself bleed out so you can heal. Be soft, be malleable, be open.